in appreciation

motherhood is not easy
as much as I love it and love my sweet daugher
i would say being a mommy is harder than most will admit

sometimes i blame it upon my want to do everything well and right
or the fact that i work full time and have to do errands and lots of "things"
but those really don't deal with the fact that your life truly just changes when you have a child.

there is very little time for you anytime, or at all.
sure, you start gaining that back when your baby is sleeping better at night

but there sure are a lot of chores that can't wait
and laundry
and food preparing
and hugging to calm crying
and walking/running/playing when you'd prefer sitting/sleeping/reading

basically, it is huge, and all encompassing a lot of the time
and i agree that lots of love and fulfillment comes from that,
but other times it is just A LOT...
and, so, i am full of thanks
for my mom

thank you for having me
and giving up so much for me
for not sleeping because i didn't want to
for feeding me and making me countless meals
for being selfless and giving up many things you probably wanted to do and playing with/loving me instead!

not knowing, until this year, what motherhood really takes
a new appreciation has been birthed inside me.
thank you for all the times it should have been said and went unnoticed
each day i am being reminded in a new way and each day i appreciate